When I was younger I was the middle child wedged between a super duper cute younger sister that did everything perfectly and a talented athletic pretty older sister. When I was born my grandmother said, “If you don’t pin back her ears she will never find a man”. When I was four I started ballet and my mom said, “You should wear black because its slimming.” Through grade school I never liked being Asian
although back then I was called Oriental. Through high school I was obsessed with staying under 100lbs. I can remember being about five years old and laying out in my backyard with my eyes open and hair spread out on the grass starring at the sun. My father said, “What are you doing?” I said, “If the sun can turn my skin brown then maybe it can turn my hair blond and my eyes blue”. This started my everlasting journey for change.
I struggled with changing myself and connecting that to disliking myself. It took me a long time to truly appreciate what I was born with and at the same time learn how to maximize my genetics. I am always changing my workouts to get stronger muscles. I am always changing my diet to see what affects my body the best. I am always changing, it’s who I am.
I can never turn off my brain thinking about how to change my clients diets or workouts so that they too can see and feel changes in their bodies. It’s who I am. I will always be working on changing myself especially my body. I love sculpting it. I love being able to challenge what I have been given but finally I don’t want to be something I am not. Who am I? I am a 42year old 5″, 115lbs Chinese Korean woman but that doesn’t define me. It’s what I do with that – that does!
Who are you?