This weekend I decided to clean out my close, a little early spring cleaning. I came upon the pants that you see below. I bought them a few years ago and they fit like a glove. Mind you that was when I was in the gym every morning at the crack of dawn doing my early morning empty stomach cardio. Then I would go back to the gym to do my circuit weight resistance training. On the weekends I did long runs and sometimes two yoga classes a day. I never allowed a starchy carb to enter my body after 2PM and I only had alcohol when I went out. Now my life isn’t as regimented so my immediate thought as I held them in my hands, standing on a step stool completely frozen in time, ‘Will they still fit?” Then the follow up provoking question entered my head, “Should I try them on?” And this is when the MIND F@%K happens!
I literally spent way too much time having a full on conversation with myself about these pants. I laid them on my bed and here is the dialogue that I had with myself and the pants.
“I should see if they still fit. I know they will probably be tight but thats okay, right? Maybe I should just try them on tomorrow morning, first thing before I eat anything. Or I could wait a week and really workout hard this week and eat super clean THEN try them on, that way I am in the right frame of mind. (pause…) What the f@%k, I can’t let a pair of pants get to me like this. This is stupid. I will just try them on and not care. Who cares – it’s just a pair of pants. My boyfriend loves the way I look. I feel good about myself. I am still active – I run and do yoga. This isn’t fair, I shouldn’t have to go to the gym while it’s still dark every morning just so I can fit these pants. Who does that?!? And I should be able to eat what I want and not have to worry about fitting into a pair of pants. In fact – no man would have this discussion with himself. It is so not right. Okay – here is the deal, I am going to try on the pants and not let it steal my peace. I am going to put them on and know that if I want them to fit comfortably again then I know what I need to do. I am just going to see how much work I need to do to get back into the pants. Like, lets just see how tight they are. In fact, if I can get them on snuggly then that will make me super happy that I haven’t gone too far away from my fit self. (A few deep inhales and exhales…) Seriously Lisa, this is just so damn stupid. Put the pants on and get over yourself.”
Sound familiar? We drive ourselves crazy trying to be who we use to be. We focus on the bad that prevents us from seeing the good. We let the little things get in the way of creating the bigger picture. We live in our bodies as if it defines who we are and we give it the power to alter our state of mind. I hope my very true story amused you and you can laugh the next time you decide to have a conversation with your pants.
~be happy in your body and healthy with your choices ~ NO EXCUSES!